The aspiring and eager heart often attempts, falteringly, to soar on the head's callow velleities. Until overcome, "the spirit that ever denies", a Goethe reference to Mephistopheles, is a fierce headwind that requires the strong wings of an eagle if one is to maintain his progress.
One's duty to Christ Jesus and Mary Baker Eddy is not met by dewy-eyed effusions any more than his sincerity as a Christian Scientist is demonstrated by much churchly hustle and bustle. Are we really grateful, with "cor contritum quasi cinis" (a heart contrite as ashes) for Christ Jesus and Mrs. Eddy and not just tepidly thankful for the loaves and fishes they and others have lovingly set before us? One does not show genuine gratitude by hesitant or cautious treading in slippered comfort the path these glorious saints have graciously hewn through the tangled and vicious mesmerism of mortal mind, of error, through their unimaginable agonies, struggles, and malignant persecutions. The genuine Christian Scientist will march unflinchingly, like them, into the blast furnace of tribulation--evil's ceasless resistance to any spiritual progress--if he is ever to earn the Master's benediction "Well done, thou good and faithful servant". No disciple worthy of the name can afford to delude himself that he is cutting the mustard when he is only timidly cutting corners.
This does not refer to hypocritical behavior, which will reap the whirlwind, but to a more innocent, if that is the right word, self-delusion that says "I'm on my way" when the only activity has been a satisfying, but faint and illusory, flickering from some reignited emotional kindling. I accept that I may only be speaking for myself and that most readers of this could be well out of sight ahead of me, but I suspect I still have some companionable company "In that sweet secret of the narrow way". Christ Jesus said his followers would do greater things than he did. I would gladly settle for the time being for something in the ballpark. Congrats will have to wait for another day.
Note: To the reader who wished to share a testimony, have at it if the comments section will take it. There may be a word limit. To those who were possibly dismayed, or worse, by some of my comments in the previous entry I can only say a couple of things. First, the issue behind that entry is of tremendous importance, as any reader of that issue of "The Banner" knows, I hope. Second, we have been taught that "Error, left to itself, accumulates." (Mis 348: 13-14)--and festers. See the definition of "accumulate (v.i.)" in the Student's Reference Dictionary. Why should giving simple, clean, straightforward answers to or explanations of some sincere questions be so distasteful? The obvious "because" isn't reassuring.